So for todays blogging101 assignment I have to try another blog event, and first one that spoke to me was this song lyrics inspiration challenge I guess.
The point is to put your song list on shuffle and when you get a song you pick a lyric and write a story based on it, so let’s go do that!
Sometimes before it gets better
The darkness gets bigger.
This is one of my favourite lyrics ever and I was so happy I got the song Miss Missing You from my ultimate favourite band Fall Out Boy, so I think I’ll have enough inspiration to write something on this theme.
Sometimes you just get stuck in what seems like never-ending sadness or emptiness. You feel like nothing you’re doing is right or that you yourself are a failure. I was, and still am right now stuck in that black hole for quite some while. Things just escalated in a wrong direction so fast and what seemed all at once. Every single bad thing imaginable went wrong and I fell into the emptiness of what is defined by one word – depression. The worst thing is that I feel guilty for so many things I know that I am not guilty for. How can be my fault that someone I loved died? I cannot, because I didn’t do absolutely anything to them, but somehow my mind just got an idea and decided to stick with it without listening to its rational side. The thing with depression is that it clouds every good feeling you have by those felling which break you inside out. Like I said to one of my fellow bloggers in the comments only things that I can feel are sadness and emptiness and right now I cannot resolve which one of them hurts me more.
This is something I was deciding whether or whether not to address on my blog, but looking at this quote I decided to actually at least touch the topic. You might ask yourself why, this is the answer. Just like the quote says sometimes it just has to get worse to go back to good once again and I want to have this written somewhere where I can read it when the good times come back again. And also someone can relate to this and realize that they are not alone in this, because that matters more than you think.
I am sorry if this is too much information for you or if you maybe don’t want to read something like this, but I had to say it. And I am in no way asking for your pity or anything similar to that.
SO GOOD BYE FOR NOW, MY FRIENDS (if anyone is even reading)