Lights leading to the building, Maksimir, Zagreb
(in response to Peek )
I indeed didn’t post anything in a week or two, but not because I lacked time rather because I haven’t had a proper inspiration to write something down.
Today I am here on a more business note, but still going to write as usual. Namely, I got a chance to introduce you to a shoe company called FSJ. FSJ is a shoe store known for handmade and all-size shoes which is a pretty unique feature for a shoe company. The site is incredibly easy to use, there are icons to help you find what you exactly want in seconds. The site will be linked here! They offer fast shipping as well (I am sure you will all like that very much).
I took upon myself to show you some of my favourite choices from some of one section of FSJ, so let’s get right into it.
I moved to Zagreb without any heels by my hand so finding something with a killer heel was my goal ever since I came here. That’s why today we are going to look at some pretty awesome stilettos boots and FSJ has many options that can satisfy any girl’s needs. Here are my picks…
All of these shoes and more you can find on FSJ’s website linked before but here are some shortcut links if you are interested in what I presented you here with.
and a BONUS
Vintage & Retro Shoes
Yes, now I am officially a small town blogger living in a big city (my new instagram bio if you haven’t caught that yet @smalltownblogger ). I always thought this would be a great change in my life, everything will be different but I have found myself in the same routine however lacking a few important people, their physical presence at least. This is the first post I am writing after the big move and I still didn’t become one of those people sitting in a coffee shop working on their laptop but it seems I soon will because my dorm internet isn’t the fastest. On the topic of my dorm I don’t have a clue should I post something on that note and if you would find it helpful since school year has already started. We will see how writing this blog will progress whilst I am here, so no promises for now.
I still need to get used to some parts of this new lifestyle but all of this wasn’t as a shock for my organism as I thought it would be, maybe because I was preparing myself for months. Of course it has just been a couple of days, a lot can change in a week and even more in a month. I have a lot more time for myself and a lot more time to think, which can be both bad and good. But what I love here is that fall is already in its’ full power and I absolutely love fall as people who have been with this blog for a while already know. So excited for wearing boots and jumpers this year since that is going to be pretty much all I will be wearing.
Meeting new people isn’t that fun because I always feel very awkward during the introducing and generally talking to someone I don’t know that well at all, however I am managing it somehow. The acute loneliness and homesickness hasn’t yet started and I think that is because my brain hasn’t really processed fully how I am not going to see some people for months, but I do feel it hiding somewhere in the corner waiting to hit me with its’ full strength. It is very curious how long my posts are here because I am pretty much treating this post as a journal entry but who cares, right? 😀 I guess this is kind of an update post that you might not find that interesting because it is all about me and my life, but I will definitely post different posts soon. Actually I already prepared a post on my 2 day vacation in Split with my boyfriend. Since I do have a lot of free time this week it will probably come out shortly after this one if I don’t sprung upon major internet issues.
Well, that will be all for this post. If you want to closely follow my student lifestyle be sure to follow my blog instagram where I am daily active. It is listed down below and if you are on the desktop version also on the right. Thank you for reading, I hope I will see you in my next post!
Since I really dived into some personal shit in my last few posts, I thought this one should be no exception. This is going to give you a short overview of how my mind works when it comes to closeness and relationships of any sort. I have no clue to why would you want to read about that but maybe you are weirder than me, who knows…
Forming a more intimate relationships includes actually getting to know someone and to do that you need to make yourself at least a bit vulnerable. Vulnerability to me was always closely connected to trust, because for me there is no bigger vulnerability than to trust someone fully and unconditionally. I know some people wear their hearts on their sleeves, but I do not wear mine anywhere nearly visible. Not to get too deep into psychological analysis of why is that so, just have in mind my cautiousness when it comes to letting people in my life. Socially awkward was something I used to use to describe myself, but now I am staying away from that expression for numerous reasons. Nowadays, however, I would describe myself as emotionally cautious and that is my personal diagnosis to why I am bad at hellos.
Being bad at hellos might seem as not such a big deal, but when you actually stop and think about how much you miss out on because you are too afraid to let people in it becomes clear how limiting that way of life is. It is not just sad, it is also very unhealthy and unnatural path through life since humans are social beings and we in someway feed on human interaction. What I hate about is specifically is the impression I leave on people. I seem cold and not interested to most of them and of course they do not get the chance to change their minds with getting to know me because they usually do not want to get to know me any further. But still, I believe, anyone who actually knows me has learned to overcome my awkwardness and to see who I truly am.
Goodbye’s. Do not get me started on them. They are hard on their own and I make them even harder trying to make things easier and better. I always over-complicate things by trying to do them in a simpler kind of way and after all these year I should really know better but I simply cannot help myself. As I already said I do seem a bit cold to people on a first note, but the people closest to me say that I am overly emotional and too sensitive which I hate to even write down since it makes me feel weak. I hide that emotional part of me under a facade and because of that my initial reactions tend to be very wrong. I am a pusher, I push people away, I ignore them until they walk away from me, I make them walk away. Only the strongest ones and ones who care about me the most realize what I am doing and stay. Yep, I am self-destructive that way.
Even though I act though and cool, I am a very scared individual. The fear of being totally alone in this world is eating me constantly. And what do I do with that fear? I kind of try to make it true. I imagine stories in my head to get angry and make a fight happen. I ask a person a question and answer myself with the worst answer I can think of. I get angry when someone is angry at me. And the worst thing is I do that half knowingly. I say goodbye’s when they are not needed because I am afraid I will have a goodbye when it is going to be the hardest for me, not even giving something a chance at being easy-going and last hell of a long time. I am so afraid of a real goodbye that I was living my life at half the capacity all this time. This is something that got into my head just recently, maybe a few months ago. I was shown how to look at things differently, how to take things slow and fast at the same time. I was thought how to not think about a goodbye, but rather how to think about a crystal future full of amazing opportunities. I was shown how to trust the people who deserve it.
I guess that will be all from me for today. Honestly I really like the new road I have been walking on for the past month or so and I would really like to know if you appreciate it too. It is rough and real, really personal and intimate. Feedback is always welcome, so be sure to leave a comment down bellow 😀 .