I live in a world where…

I live in a world where everything gets overanalyzed and critiqued.
I live in a world where I am not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough.
I live in a world where the worst outcome is expected.
I live in a world where there is no peace and quiet.
I live in a world where everybody wants to get rid of me.
I live in a world where everything I do is wrong.
I live in a world where dreams are fake and not obtainable.
I live in a world where conspiracy theories are happening wherever I go.
I live in a world where paranoia is normal.
I live in a world where loneliness is welcomed.
I live in a world where sadness is the basic emotion.
I live in a world where I am not understood.
I live in a world where I don’t belong.

I live in my head.

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Anxiety and Panic Attacks

The next text you will read is going to a post that I did for Italian Hurricane back in July! It was a part of her guest posts in Psycho Tuesday. The reason I decided on posting this on my own blog is that I personally think that it is helpful and I want more people to read it, because I wish I knew these things before my panic attacks and anxiety started.


Today I am here to raise awareness. As a person who has anxiety (not normal anxiety you get before tests, speaking in front of people etc.) and panic attack, I strongly feel that we should talk about these things, explain it, learn it and UNDERSTAND IT.

I am 16 (and a half, but who cares about that) and I had my first panic attack when I was about 12. I don’t remember the exact incident because in that period of my life I had at least two panic attack per week. I was scared because I didn’t know what was happening. The feeling of high level anxiety would come rushing through me, climbing up my body from my toes to my head. My heart started to pound so fast I thought it was going to jump out of my skin, I was shaking, my hands numb. And all of that happened to me while I was making my bed which is not something you normally feel anxious about.

Over the course of next few years I had panic attacks in a lot of situations, and my anxiety would get so high that I would shake. Sadly, those things have had affected the way I live. As a dancer I had a lot of performances and I was, let’s say fine, with public watching what I do, but now just walking across a hall full of people, or being in a small drugstore is a problem sometimes. It’s the simple things that are a bit difficult, but you know what – I learned. I learned how to make my panic attacks easier, I learned how to deal with anxiety in public, and the most important thing I learned how to talk to people about it.  Not just about my anxiety and panic attack, but I learned how to take my problems and experience with it and use it to help others with same problems, who might haven’t understood everything.

So today I am going to give you a few tips about surviving panic attacks and anxiety that have helped me. If you don’t have them you can simply use these tips by having them in mind when you are helping someone with them.

1. You are not alone. Not even when you don’t have anyone by your side, someone is always just a phone call away.

2. Learn what makes you feel at peace. For me that is some music blasting through my headphones, or someone talking about places thy have travelled to.

3. It useful to learn some breathing exercises or even how to do yoga. Meditation is awesome.

4. You are most definitely not making any of your friends in your presence embarrassed. They are there because they care about you and because they want to help.

5. When you feel you are going to have an attack prepare yourself mentally for it. Don’t start to panick about having it, try to convince yourself that you got this and you can get through this, because you can!

6. It is a good idea to tell people you are close with about your panic attacks and/or anxiety and also tell them what they can do to help you, just in case.

7. You should not be embarrassed about this. Own it and talk about it and it might help you and others in the future.

8. Keep in mind that what you are feeling won’t last forever. Panic attacks usually never last longer than 30 minutes, even though mine are mostly 5 minutes.

9. I know it can be scary to go to a crowded space, especially if you have social anxiety, but at least try to do it, and give the best you can.

10. Be open to accepting help. This step is usually really hard for me because whenever I need help I put my guard up and don’t let anyone in. I have to realize that asking for help is braver than denying you need it.

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Ornate

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Ornate.”



Since the moment you lay your eyes on this beautiful piece of architecture it is crystal clear that the creators went all out. No resources were spared in making this historical building. And as soon as you walk inside of it you are blinded by gold, sculptures, paintings, mosaics – ART! This place breathes art.

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Bloggers Recognition Award

Maybe a month ago I got nominated to do this award from the lovely Sheila of A Girl’s Path to Happiness ! Thank you so much for nominating me I really enjoy doing these kinds of posts and I am deeply sorry that I didn’t do it sooner!


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The Blogger Recognition Award was founded by Eve Estells, Edge of the Night author. This lady created this award so that she could help bloggers connect with each other and help each other. Here are the rules:

Blogger Recognition Award Rules

  • Select 15 other blogs you want to give the award to. Do some digging if you must! Find those blogs. You cannot nominate yourself or the person who has nominated you.
  • Write a post to show off your award! Give a brief story of how your blog got started and give a piece or two of advice to new bloggers. Thank whoever nominated you, and provide a link to their blog. List who you’ve nominated in the post.
  • Comment on each blog and let them know you’ve nominated them. Provide a link to the award post you created.
  • Provide a link to the original post on Edge of Night. That way, anyone can find the original guidelines and post if needed, and we can keep it from mutating and becoming confusing! (It happens LOL).

(All the rules were copied from the original post!)

First lets quickly say something about this blog.
I talked a lot about why I started this blog! It was a mixture of wanting to learn how to express myself and gain confidence in my writing, also having a therapeutic “place” where I can also create something and maybe (hopefully) help other people.
More about this you can find in some of my old posts:
I write because, Who I am and Why am I here, All about me! 

How appropriate, I also did a post What I learned about blogging for my one year anniversary here on WordPress!

Now my nominations:
MY OWN PRIVATE IDAHO
The Tezzy Files
Manikui
Rosy Vogue Blog
The May 13th
Infinite Daydreamer
John Chon
Sunesiss
Fashionfoodsoul
Bittersweet Sensations
Iridescent Sprits

(This is it, I know that it should be 15 people but I am lazy, cut me some slack)

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