Big city girl

Yes, now I am officially a small town blogger living in a big city (my new instagram bio if you haven’t caught that yet @smalltownblogger ). I always thought this would be a great change in my life, everything will be different but I have found myself in the same routine however lacking a few important people, their physical presence at least. This is the first post I am writing after the big move and I still didn’t become one of those people sitting in a coffee shop working on their laptop but it seems I soon will because my dorm internet isn’t the fastest. On the topic of my dorm I don’t have a clue should I post something on that note and if you would find it helpful since school year has already started. We will see how writing this blog will progress whilst I am here, so no promises for now.

I still need to get used to some parts of this new lifestyle but all of this wasn’t as a shock for my organism as I thought it would be, maybe because I was preparing myself for months. Of course it has just been a couple of days, a lot can change in a week and even more in a month. I have a lot more time for myself and a lot more time to think, which can be both bad and good. But what I love here is that fall is already in its’ full power and I absolutely love fall as people who have been with this blog for a while already know. So excited for wearing boots and jumpers this year since that is going to be pretty much all I will be wearing.

Meeting new people isn’t that fun because I always feel very awkward during the introducing and generally talking to someone I don’t know that well at all, however I am managing it somehow. The acute loneliness and homesickness hasn’t yet started and I think that is because my brain hasn’t really processed fully how I am not going to see some people for months,  but I do feel it hiding somewhere in the corner waiting to hit me with its’ full strength. It is very curious how long my posts are here because I am pretty much treating this post as a journal entry but who cares, right? 😀  I guess this is kind of an update post that you might not find that interesting because it is all about me and my life, but I will definitely post different posts soon. Actually I already prepared a post on my 2 day vacation in Split with my boyfriend. Since I do have a lot of free time this week it will probably come out shortly after this one if I don’t sprung upon major internet issues.

Well, that will be all for this post. If you want to closely follow my student lifestyle be sure to follow my blog instagram where I am daily active. It is listed down below and if you are on the desktop version also on the right. Thank you for reading, I hope I will see you in my next post!

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Mood board for October

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I have been doing mood boards for over a year now, the concept is me giving some information about what I did that month that is connected with this photos (that I rebloged onto my Tumblr, if you want to check it out it’s girlonfire-youtube-lover).

Obsessed with the pale baby pink colour for this fall. Really want a jacket in that colour, maybe my shopping in Zagreb will result in me having one!

Currently in a process of learning how to cook!

Miss going to museums, but I might visit a few when I go to Zagreb next week. If you are in Zagreb for the first time, you should visit the Museum of illusions and of course the famous Museum of broken relationships. PS: If you are there on the 10th we might bump into each other. 

In an unending search for a good chocker. I don’t really understand how I haven’t found one yet. 

Like a kid I always have to step on the fall leaves to hear that satisfying crunching sound.

My makeup this month has pretty much been the simplest it can, a little of nude eyeshadow with a black eyeliner and nude or pink lipstick.

Cannot wait to get into a nice lush bath as soon as my piercing heals.

I am kind of obsessed with loose button-ups with cute patterns all over. Those are the only button-ups I own.

Last year’s October mood board – HERE
Previous Mood Boards —> HERE

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Mood board for September

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I have been doing mood boards for over a year now, the concept is me giving some information about what I did that month that is connected with this photos (that I rebloged onto my Tumblr, if you want to check it out it’s girlonfire-youtube-lover).

This month was full of travelling and in November I am travelling to Zagreb two times!

Also this month I bought a lot of new clothes, to change-up my black white and grey combination!

I am really into turtlenecks and long overalls this fall!

Excited for my prom dress that I am slowly starting to design in my head (already)!

In my shopping spree I also bought new pair of jeans that are slightly a washed out. Look forward on seeing them in my future Outfit Inspirations!

Really, really excited and cannot wait for October’s leaf falling and of course Halloween.

I do not know if I ever told you this but no matter how much I expand my book shelf it is always to small. So I have my books there, on all of my wardrobes, above my bed, on the floor even etc. I have too many books!

Last year’s September mood board – HERE
Previous Mood Boards —> HERE

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Weird diary for the month of July 

This is quite literally a journey thourgh my mind, it’s not a very safe place so consider yourself warned!


2nd of July 

16:25
I don’t know how but it always seem like everything bad is my fault. 

4th of July

23:22
It makes me so angry that I ignore my intuition and instinct. It’s like I know I am going to be hurt so badly, but still do it. Am I a masochist?

6th of July

22:42
I am one of those people who cry when they get angry and that is so frustrating because I look like a fool. I could be yelling at you about how mad I am and cry simultaneously. And after I’m done I usually start to sob even more. It’s so crazy. Also I read on Tumblr that these kinds of people are the most dangerous so I’m also afraid of myself. INSANE!

9th of July

18:47
I hate summer. I know what you think, oh the heat, bikinis, depilation etc. It’s not even that. Summer is the season were I always break all of my promises to myself. And that is connected to me doubting myself more and thinking I am worthless. SO I PRETTY MUCH SPEND MY SUMMER PARTYING! (that’s pure sarcasm if you didn’t catch it)

11th of July

23:55
Oh God, I just realized a few days ago that I am a total control freak and when I told that to one of my friends she was like I know. How did I miss this? I mean, I have been considering myself a perfectionist for a long time, but a control freak? That is totally new to me!

14th of July

16:41
I hate that someone who is a pretty bad person and acts like they are best at everything and like he/she is better than anyone, thinks I am the same way just because they don’t like me or the fact that I actually stand up against them when everyone else is too afraid.

17th of July

16:47
Summer, tanning and beaches are overrated.

19:12
I am constantly afraid that my depression is going to come back as soon as this summer finishes.

19th of July

18:59
I love when I notice how much I have grown as a person and how has my style changed within these few years.

21st of July 

01:21

It is so great when you finally admit something that you have been repressing for years to yourself even though you might aren’t ready to tell everyone. It is so great to feel comfortable within yourself, more than I could ever begin to express!

23rd of July

19:52

It’s amazing how one thing or a person can make you day better or worse. 

25th of July

18:00
How is it possible for me to leave everything until the last moment and then still do everything on time?

29th of July

00:25
I can’t believe how much I feel different from what I felt half a year ago. It’s like I’m a totally different person. And it’s not only that, I feel more at peace with my self and my mind setting so that’s good but it seems that good presents a weird feature in my life.

19:26
How is it possible that I am still clueless about what is flirting and what is not?


  • That will be it for this Weird Diary. I just thought it would be interesting to see how my mind works on different days and in different time periods. If you like this check out my first Weird Diary here and if you decide to do your own version of this please link me so I can check it out! Thank you for reading.

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SO GOOD BYE FOR NOW, MY FRIENDS (if anyone is even reading)

Weird diary?

I have no inspiration so I am just going to come to this draft and
write some of my thoughts in the period of next six days.
Sounds interesting? Then keep reading!


Wednesday 1st of April

2:35 
It is crazy how we take everything for granted, especially our bodies. They are so amazing! Think about it… We can feel touch, heat, cold, pain, pleasure… We can paint on it. Dress it up, dress it down, undress it. It constantly changes. There aren’t two same bodies on this Earth. Your body is special. Your body is amazing. Learn to accept it and love it!

21:09 
It’s funny how sometimes is hard for me to see whether am I just paranoid or something is indeed happening. Like for an example, people looking at me, watching me and
my every move. And what is strange, I am not scared of people following me, I am scared of being paranoid.

Thursday 2nd of April

23:43 
I don’t understand people who need a relationship partner to be happy. You get out of a relationship and you already have a backup guy/girl to be with? Why the hell were you in a relationship in the first place? To pretend you are happy? In my experience those kind of people usually think they love a person immediately even though they actually have a few backups if that person doesn’t work out. I know it seems crazy, but this really happens. I am so annoyed by it and by those people, especially because I was with one. 

Friday 3rd of April

12:23
People are not weak for showing their sadness. They are weak if they don’t admit it, at least to themselves. Those people are weak!

Saturday 4th of April

22:58
Once I had a conversation with one of my friends about trust. About how are some people never capable of trusting. I am one of those people and the reason of that lays in my past. Over the course of my (for now) short life a lot of things, bad things, happened which led me to believe that no one can help me, but myself. It’s funny because I protect myself by being a trustworthy person who doesn’t trust. And when people ask me why I don’t trust them or anyone at all I just say that I cannot even trust myself, let alone other people.

Monday 6th of April 

1:43
I hate myself for leaving everything until the last moment but I also love myself for letting myself enjoy in the free time I had. What a strong contrast!

21:46
Thing with depression is that it has you fooled. Just when you think you have gone past it, it comes back and hits you harder than ever.

Thursday 7th of April

12:02
Sometimes everything just lines up and works perfectly, even if it isn’t the way you imagined it to be.


 SO GOOD BYE FOR NOW, MY FRIENDS (if anyone is even reading)