Weird Diary 2016 version

It feels alot better to do things without the pressure of having to them.

I have been lacking in the motivation department this whole month, it’s like something is stopping me to create.

I am tired of hiding, I just want everyone to know who I really am. Is that too much to ask?

Pain will still be there, no matter what you do and no matter how you feel. It is something that cannot be erased and avoided.

It is insane to look back at your life and see how much you changed.

Why do I feel the need to be the best at everything I do even though I know that is impossible?


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In response to The Daily Post’s weekly photo challenge: “Creepy.”

Just a simple approach for this theme because creepy isn’t usually what I have in mind when I’m shooting something.


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Weird diary for the month of July 

This is quite literally a journey thourgh my mind, it’s not a very safe place so consider yourself warned!

2nd of July 

I don’t know how but it always seem like everything bad is my fault. 

4th of July

It makes me so angry that I ignore my intuition and instinct. It’s like I know I am going to be hurt so badly, but still do it. Am I a masochist?

6th of July

I am one of those people who cry when they get angry and that is so frustrating because I look like a fool. I could be yelling at you about how mad I am and cry simultaneously. And after I’m done I usually start to sob even more. It’s so crazy. Also I read on Tumblr that these kinds of people are the most dangerous so I’m also afraid of myself. INSANE!

9th of July

I hate summer. I know what you think, oh the heat, bikinis, depilation etc. It’s not even that. Summer is the season were I always break all of my promises to myself. And that is connected to me doubting myself more and thinking I am worthless. SO I PRETTY MUCH SPEND MY SUMMER PARTYING! (that’s pure sarcasm if you didn’t catch it)

11th of July

Oh God, I just realized a few days ago that I am a total control freak and when I told that to one of my friends she was like I know. How did I miss this? I mean, I have been considering myself a perfectionist for a long time, but a control freak? That is totally new to me!

14th of July

I hate that someone who is a pretty bad person and acts like they are best at everything and like he/she is better than anyone, thinks I am the same way just because they don’t like me or the fact that I actually stand up against them when everyone else is too afraid.

17th of July

Summer, tanning and beaches are overrated.

I am constantly afraid that my depression is going to come back as soon as this summer finishes.

19th of July

I love when I notice how much I have grown as a person and how has my style changed within these few years.

21st of July 


It is so great when you finally admit something that you have been repressing for years to yourself even though you might aren’t ready to tell everyone. It is so great to feel comfortable within yourself, more than I could ever begin to express!

23rd of July


It’s amazing how one thing or a person can make you day better or worse. 

25th of July

How is it possible for me to leave everything until the last moment and then still do everything on time?

29th of July

I can’t believe how much I feel different from what I felt half a year ago. It’s like I’m a totally different person. And it’s not only that, I feel more at peace with my self and my mind setting so that’s good but it seems that good presents a weird feature in my life.

How is it possible that I am still clueless about what is flirting and what is not?

  • That will be it for this Weird Diary. I just thought it would be interesting to see how my mind works on different days and in different time periods. If you like this check out my first Weird Diary here and if you decide to do your own version of this please link me so I can check it out! Thank you for reading.


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Why am I weird?

I am what society would probably judge as a weird person, so let’s go and see why.

This is more of a joke post, something I would find funny and entertaining to read. And I am not saying that YOU are a weird person for doing these things below, because in my opinion there isn’t such thing as normal person or normal anything for that matter. There are just common and uncommon things.

  1. Whenever I see a candle I have to feel the heat of it, there is just something hypnotizing in it for me.
  2. I have a great memory, but I cannot memorize people’s names.
  3. Shopping is therapy, but only when you are doing it with the right crowd.
  4. I am writing song lyrics everywhere, but then I forget about them ever existing.
  5. I hate when I know the word in english, italian or latin but cannot remember it on my mother tongue.
  6. I love wearing bow ties, but I don’t wear them often because I think people will think I’m weird.
  7. I am obsessed with memorizing the names of lipsticks and nail polishes. Not the brand, but the colour for example Brick Lame lipstick from L’Oreal.
  8. I buy clothes with having an idea how to style them but put of the actual styling part for months, even years.
  9. I either cannot fall asleep or cannot get out of the sleep haze when I wake up.
  10. I have good intuition but usually don’t listen to it.
  11. I collect theatre and movie tickets.
  12. I have a lot of jewelery, and I only wear like 5 pieces. But I still like to buy more.
  13. I eat cheese with ketchup on it.
  14. I can literally mix all sorts of food. Salty and sweet, sweet and sour etc.
  15. My bookshelf always seems to be too little for my book collection even though I expand it.
  16. On my nightstand there are currently 3 books which I am reading.
  17. I don’t have to drink a lot of water, sometime I even forget to drink it all day, which is really bad for you may I say.
  18. It’s hard for me to admit that I am wrong, even in the smallest things.
  19. I either don’t read books at all, or read a few of them in a week. (I love reading btw.)
  20. Personally I consider myself a realist, but everyone says I am a pessimist.

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